I don’t know why but I seem to be in a little slump lately. I think it’s partially my Lit and Sex class… it takes me such a horribly long time to write a good thought paper and the constant weekly assignments are just draining the life out of me. Then lately, I messed up my postdoc’s critical, 40 day revision experiment by not reading his directions completely. Now I just feel like everything is going wrong. But this was probably a product of my laziness and previous lack of motivation… which led to greater laziness and greater lack of motivation. So where did the original lack of motivation come from? Hmm, perhaps it’s that I’m taking a year off with no clear plan yet. I see my friends and even my sister with their lives in perfect order… everyone is getting into med school, landing amazing consulting/ibanking jobs, have plans to travel the world and etc.
I think the lack of focus that caused me to forget to change the T cell media in lab was a huge wake up call though. Today, I cleaned the lab bench and decided it was time to put an end to this nonsense.
